Your Reaction May Vary (yrmv) 
Wednesday, January 26th, 2005
Ahh, another day at the office draws to a close. I flubbed today and nipped into the starbucks barrel for a caffiene hit. MMmmmm, juicy.
So, lots to write about…
Her Katbadness continues to perform her bad bads from around the world, allaying my fears of losing touch with her. I hope Killermonkies and I keep in touch as well when his path at last takes him across the pond.
The baby approaches, and soon I’ll be a father. Woo! So, so, so many things shouldcouldwould like to say. I don’t really know how to express the feelings I have experienced. It’s like dying, or being born. It’s an endless sort of thing, always a new way to experience it, and never do I feel I’ve really seen it.
A lot of different reactions about my impending Parenthood from those in my life. My sole functioning Maternal Unit seems to be stuck in an insult and defame routine, while my Card Shark is all advice and skin-deep smiles, hiding the worry and concern beneath the surface. Zane is both simple and impossible to read on the subject, so I’m not certain what he thinks, save that he is generally supportive. Embereyes’s family is another story, her sister being impossible to read, too much seems to be going on, and she seems somewhat focused on not being readable at all times. Rarely have I met anyone so guarded about themselves. Everyone has their secrets though.
Her mother has been extremely supportive and take charge about it all, which reassures and uneases me somewhat. The closer the date, the greater my unease seems to grow.
Some fears are normal, but mine go beyond that… but now is not the time to write about that.